#136 - again

i've gone back into the reading-heaps-of-stuff phase!
a photo of the books i managed to borrow on friday - some sort of miracle, seeing as my library card accidentally went through the wash :S the bar code still scanned, so i was just wow-ed over



we had assembly in the renovated hall for the first time this morning. it was much better than the old crappy one! and when they automatically rolled in the long slide-y screen on the stage, with a picture of the earth and the star wars motif, it was so win :D
in the afternoon, just after school finished, it was pouring really heavily so everyone took out their umbrellas. and people were really close together, trying to get onto the buses, and all the umbrellas mixed up together, were so pretty. it looked a little like this, but they were much better looking
and don't you just love that fresh pleasant smell after it rains? so nice to smell ^^

#135- Etiquette

et·i·quette/ˈetikit/

Noun: The customary code of polite behavior in society or among members of a particular profession or group
~ according to wikipedia
lately i have this feeling that people are lacking an understanding of what etiquette, is so i felt the need to remind you all...

RSVP

abbreviation

Répondez s'il vous plaît, or please reply (used at the end of invitations to request a response)
that's right, a response, meaning you actually have to acknowledge the fact that someone requests your company, and its ettiquette to respond to their request and of course a date is important, it's there for a reason so it shouldn't be ignored

and it seems as though we have forgotten our please and thank you's, its custom! although at times i do feel as though some people abuse this, like on trains, some old, stubborn ladies seem to have this stereotypical perception of the average teenager and impose this on me despite my innocent facade.

#134 - pessimism

"the glass is half filled. do you find it as half empty or half full?" that's what a friend asked me when i was acting particularly grumpy this morning.
i said no, because i have a terribly incurable bout of pessimism after a series of unfortunate events; and due to this, i've been spelling out amazing prophecies of doom for myself that are strangely comforting.
sighhhhh
down in the dumps. even the weather agrees with me, there's so many blistering cold cold cold winds and gloomy skies..
on a nicer note, thank you soooo much to all the people i have annoyed the brains out of for spending time to help me understand very very annoyingly easy things i find extremely difficult! and for having so much patience when i am quite easily among the most slowest and illogical group of people alive! :)

#133- Time

we're always told that in time, things will get better.so what if it doesn't? i'v been sick for just under 2 months now and well... i've experienced everything associated with the common flu. for the past few weeks i was technically sick but it wasnt really that obvious, that was until the weekend when the cycle began all over again. and as typical asian household, my family turned to chinese medicine. would it be weird to say that i'm used to chinese medicine o.O

let's hope that i can overcome my cold/flu/virus or whatever bug has been dwelling inside of me recently or else my growth will be stunted and i shall be known as little shirley forever T.T

#132 - life and glorious fails

from the wild and wily ways of a brunette bombshell:

what i mean to say is this: if things don't go as planned, so be it.
everyone says that, you say? okay. okay, how to tell you and make you understand?
how about this: failure is essential. fail as much and as gloriously as you can. fail in little, seemingly inconsequential ways when no one is looking. or fail on stage, under the lights, with thousands watching. it doesn't matter where or how so long as you allow yourself the chance. because, the thing is, others might not see it as such. and given enough time, it might reveal itself as something else. and when the failure fades or passes or wears another mask it gives way to a joy so profound, it lies beyond imagination.
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that morsel of advice made me feel much better about failure. unintentionally, i've definitely allowed myself the chance to fail and i do hope that it will become something joyful. after all, we learn from mistakes and previous fails, right? but i think i'm over failing.


~ on the road of life

and a question i would very much like the answer to: what is life, and what's it about? that's what a very nice person, perhaps one of the nicest and sweetest people i know in the school, asked me when i was in a hazy fog of misery on thursday. i thought of a very shameful answer, because life seemed to be full of nothing but sadness and tears at that moment. i said it to him..and he sighed. everywhere he went, everyone said the same thing. and then he asked everyone else sitting down as well: did we not see the lights shining on everyone's faces? (corny, i know) didn't we see the blue sky stretch every so endlessly? and wasn't sitting down with good people, discussing a matter that was not materialistic in any way and so relevant to us, without any awkward silences, one of the joys of life? ...... hopefully one day i'll discover the answer to the question.

#131- The end of the world or so it seems

does anyone else feel like just dying in a hole? its surprising how an exam mark can have such a big influence on our emotions and contrary to what others may think i actually failed advanced english... end of story! i wish english wasn't compulsory but unfortunately my views will evenutate in nothing so i'll just improve my english ability (easier said than done, i know)

on another note, did you know that tomorrow could be the end of the world. google it for more info i cbb to explain, and if i dont blog in the next few days then i would've died. ):
this reminds me of a conversation i had with a friend about dying vs. not dying i.e. would you rather die knowing that you'll be leaving behind all those that love you or would you rather not die but have someone you love die. i think life and death are very interesting topics, so what would your choice be?

oh and this life vs death topic kinda stems from 49 days, i kinda have mixed thoughts about the ending (thanks better for ruining the ending for me = = ) and in a sense it was satisfying however the writers included this other storyline which was rushed and sudden. one thing to note when watching 49 days: pay close attention to the dialogue the stuff they say is really meaningful.

#130 - tuesday came and went like a helicopter overhead...

i'm already waiting for holidays to arrive. they're so far away T__T
ancient was good, but an assessment done over a three month period is :O
and i hate being in the middle of the term. far from the holidays, both ways.
not too much to write about...so just watch the awesome vid featuring super amazing youtubers =D

#129- I is sad ): part 9

Sorry guys, you are all probably sick of my i is sad ): rants but unfortunately i need to vent my anger and frustration.
Don't we all hate exams and of course the mind games and stress associated with it. i'd like to think of the pre-exam, exam and after effects as a cos curve

as you can see before exams we're on a high (at 0) and as we approach ^π/₂ (aka 90 degrees) we start to enter exam phase and thats when we finally realise how stressed and unprepared we are (well most of us, there's bound to be a few people who are confident and i envy you people~ grrrrr). after the exam week (or two...) we begin to party =D in order to appease our conscience and guilt for having not studied enough prior to our exams (hence we enter stage^3π/₂ or as i'd like to call it; the recovery). and then finally the waiting game begins as we start to get our dreaded exams back ): my fellow readers we have reached the peak of this curve aka 2π and so there is only one way now and that is down- before we regroup and continue with our everyday life.

and so where am i currently? that is just past 2π, my physics mark has completely overwhelmed me. it saddens me to think about all the marks i lost for the most careless errors and so i is sad ):

#128 - shot in the dark

i was supposed to be studying for ancient essay in two days...but i went shopping with mum instead. yay for effective procrastination! i now have two warm nice coats and fingerless gloves for winter =D
red's all the rage for things this winter. i walked past heaps of stores and everything was red, black and grey. even the kitchenware at myer. red pots and pans draw a :S from me.
on cold wintery sundays like these i only look forward to my beloved masterchef and merlin <3 oh and after so long i downloaded within temptation's new album, the unforgiving, yesterday. and can i say, it's definitely one of my fav albums, where i like every single song. the blog entry title is actually the second song from the album, which you can hear here
oh and i was tumblr browsing and found two good pics worthy of sharing =3

burst your bubble: endless rain


different perspectives [source from ???]



oh and from deviant art:
ACCKKKKKK SOOOOOOO CUTEEEE!!! >.< [gifs don't work, so actually click the link]

#127- When blogger died..

well i'd like to think that most of you realised that blogger died yesterday and yes i was very depressed. keely and i had a little session where we just ranted about how we both missed blogger T.T, fortunately its revived but the 1hr notice thingo is so unrealistic ):

journey through my mood waves:
1. Gets home, turns on computer and so that i can start to read recaps for latest ep of 49 days ~ sigh subbing is so slow

2. Goes onto blogger to post (sorry for the wait sweet), only to find a notice that its currently unavailable (should've screenshot it) so then i become..

3. Finally starts read recap for 49 days whilst pausing to admire the scheduler <3

4. Goes back to blogger after dinner, still not fixed =.=''

5. Starts tutor hw and even bothered to go harry-ing = waste of 2hrs, subs for 49days arent up so im...

6. Checks blogger again whilst ranting with keely so then i finally become...

7. And...after watching the latest ep i am currently...

on another note, congrats viv for getting edward addicted, welcome to the 49 day-er community (:

#126 - hmmm

i saw bitter yesterday!! <3
she was still...



but i had quite a lovely catch up with her and i cannot wait for next month's special occasion. :D
so. i have a love/hate attitude towards hump day. i didn't like it last week because i had maths ext the next day, and today i'm sort of a bit :) and ): towards it.

:) for:
- getting legal mark of 87 *SHOCKKK* top mark was 93 but i is happy, especially because i crammed vast amounts of content the night before (do-able, but not advisable) and it worked + it's my first good mark as a senior (:
- ancient getting better and more interesting. i'm actually looking forward to the essay next week =O

:( for:
- ms kula informing me i got like 6/13 for a "hard" question in maths ext =[ (to be expected, but nevertheless sad)
- maths test tomorrow and finishing at normal time, grrr
- saving another person's skin and getting framed and given disgusted looks by a certain..person because of a very unfortunate incident
-core hw notice given out today, i detest core and english very much =~=

and now it's the end of my post. byeee (:

#125- Girra

it feels so good to be rid of exams. although i think that life without exams or assessment is bad (yes im not kidding), by that i mean that it will only encourage me to procrastinate more instead of focusing on my studies (sigh i sound conscientious ...not).
so to celebrate the end of exams i went to girra today... good memories =D, unfortunately my cheeks are extremely sore right now from sweet's abusive pinches. sigh i still wish i could return to the good old days seeing everyone makes it even harder to forget girra. oh yeah i had an awkward encounter with my old jap teacher who even forgot my name >< , i is sad ):

my old hangout spot, its so empty and lifeless right? but it gets really loud during lunch and recess

#124 - mum's the word!

without my dear old mum, i would be nothing, and definitely not alive. i will certainly try to be the best daughter by correcting my ghastly habits and ways, and make you proud! and i will love love love you forever and always. S2

and now guys i introduce you to my dear old mother, surrounded by very fat toys:


my sis and i also bought her flowers - two bouquets collected very last minute-ly. cos mum was cutting roses in the morning...(she was probably feeling unloved and cutting flowers for herself because her ungrateful little kids seemed to have forgotten mother's day... Dx) the small roses in the middle are what she collected. and on either side, two expensive bouquets, presented with much love! :3


some of the pretty flowers!




and yesss! i studied a bit. must get back to it now. happy mother's day!

#123- It's a mother's day

Dear Mother,

although you shall never read... i'm sorry. i'm sorry for all my wrongs and for all the hurt that i have caused you. you are my purpose, my motivation and my inspiration. just like this frame at my house... all that i am or ever hope to be i owe my angel mother. so thank you mum, and i hope you have a lovely mother's day!

on another note.... my halfyearlies will be over tomorrow ^^
list of exams to sit:
1. Maths 2U
2. English Advanced T.T
3. Chemistry
4. English Extension
5. Maths Extension
6. Economic + Physics

things to do after exams:
1. Read English Advanced book or else im screwed
2. Visit Sicilian Restaurant
3. Visit girra (sweet and everyone else =D)... so looking forward to tuesday
4. Crash better's house with butter and batter and make my invites... shall do this on wednesday
5. Go cafe with people ^ mentioned above aka the awesome foursome =D
6. party^^ not really i think ill get enough time for this
7. Watch 49 days and admire the reaper <3 MUST DO THIS TASK!

#122 - chances lost are hope's torn up pages.

the most five stressful days i've had so far at school have finally come to an end!
but my marks are gonna be bad. maths ext was just an unstoppable express train on the path to disaster (i totally blame myself for this) and legal today... i totally misread one short answer question worth five marks! =[ and i failed the extended response...law reform :@ and i lol'd (quietly i hope) when i read question 11, sounds like i am quite the awesome assailant who unfortunately needs to pay a momentary remedy =| oh well, what's done is done. i vow to turn over a new leaf for studying, and so i made a pact with nana and meena to never cram again. pact starts tomorrow! and today i saw big shirley in her ruse uniform=D
so now majority of stuff is over, i've been finally playing with the D90 and i love it. it's such an adorable fat lump. and 18-105 <3333 when i extend it all the way, it looks like i'm a cyclops ^^

the super cute cousin featuring part of the wall of stuff




the wall of stuff



iPad 2 = *O* -mindblown-




for bitter <3



yes...i couldn't resist taking a luvo in the mirror with a dslr.... =D


box kit and necklace (:




♪ CHANCES - F4F
chances come and carry me,
chances are waiting to be taken and i can see
chances are the fascinations
chances won't escape from me
chances are only what we make them
and all i need~

#121- A Thursday post

my first exam free day and im stuck at home doing maths revision whilst attempting to do some hardcore eco + phys studying. considering that this is our first formal assessment week as seniors, im not really stressing as much as i thought i'd be (except for english which was just plain horrible T.T). batter and i had this discussion yesterday and i suppose our whole grade indulged in something after every exam which was most likely fastfood. i used my gloria jeans card to get my free drink (: - tim tam chiller is so nice (drools)

list of exams to sit:
1. Maths 2U
2. English Advanced T.T
3. Chemistry
4. English Extension
5. Maths Extension
6. Economic + Physics

things to do after exams:
1. Read English Advanced book or else im screwed
2. Visit Sicilian Restaurant
3. Visit girra (sweet and everyone else =D)
4. Crash better's house with butter and batter and make my invites
5. Go cafe with people ^ mentioned above aka the awesome foursome =D
6. party^^ not really i think ill get enough time for this
7. Watch 49 days and admire the reaper <3

#120 - wallowing in sorrow

to do:
- biology is poo - waste of one year
- chemistry is poo as well
- ext maths (f-m-l 3d trig and perms and combs and numbers in general)
- legal studies =[ =[ (too much content!!!)

i am so unlucky. i only know one other person who has four exams this week as well ==
and it's a tad too late now because i've just realised i'm not a science-y person at all. i find bio's content decent and the exams rather detestable. or maybe it's just the fact the science department hands out annoying questions that most people would never expect to turn up in the exam, like a dichotomous key. when did we ever learn this, how is this related to bio and why was it worth three marks! and chem = :( :( :( i just didn't get most of the spontaneous skill-type q's. one had atrocious wording. and i wish i prepared 100x better.
but my dearly beloved entered my life, finally - my one highlight of the week :) i will continue molesting it once everything crappy blows over ;D
and now why am i so terribly lazy and unmotivated without a sense of self control =[

#119- Hurray

i feel so relaxed and calm right now- strange :$. english advanced is over [YAY] it was quite funny actually because people made bets about which question would be our essay question, i suppose i didnt mind any of them i would've just prefered either no.1 or 2. when reading/planning time began you could hear so many people saying yes because they got the question they wanted, one of which is batter who only prepared for question 1 (lucky = =)

list of exams to sit:
1. Maths 2U
2. English Advanced T.T
3. Chemistry
4. English Extension
5. Maths Extension
6. Economic + Physics ( unfortunately they're on the same day~sigh)

so today i woke up with after going to bed at 10 (yes i know thats extremely early) and i felt so refreshed and all. i wasnt dreading english which is quite unexpected. so i got out of bed and BANG . i had neck pains T.T which resulted in me trying to get rid of them all morning before the exams.this included me attempting to massage myself before i gave up and started annoying my mother ^^

and congrats sweet (: on getting your d90 i cant wait to see it on tuesday, till then  <333