#154 - ramble

it seems like only yesterday when it was the first day of the holidays.

what the heck, why does time pass so fast now and at school, almost every period i would look at the clock and hope that time would pass quickly but it just seemed to drag on forever, every second passing by at the speed of a fat tortoise waddling -_-

sighhhhh
i wonder if i did anything productive at all.. the days passed by like a beautiful dream that unfortunately has to come to an end.

plus i hate maths. the only thing next to the ancient thesis (deliberately avoiding as a result of the ridiculous 2k word length + footnoting+ writing and because i can't understand the historic book i'm reading from T__T) which i haven't started on/looked at all holidays. i was always shithouse at it, tried in vain, when it came to exams - fail, just can't answer the questions. now i'm literally on the verge of quitting and not giving a damn about it at all, couldn't care less about whatever i get- i find even 2u so overwhelmingly difficult and so time-consuming. i'm just not made for logic. and calculations.

anyway i just wanted to wish publicly: happy birthday to tess, dad and shajith (who will never read this) for the 13th! :)

+ lady gaga concert!!! my dad sort of saw her, there were heaps of fans. waaaaa :( i wish i went =[ apparently town hall went mad and everyone dressed really gaga-esque. she got two pages on mX too.
is it weird i sometimes feel closer to people who i don't see often but i wasn't close to them when i did see them often - and also that i sometimes feel very distant and estranged from people i see daily? i guess we just take each other for granted sometimes... like we're under the illusion we'll be together and near forever, because it seems that way..

i also feel sad i haven't watched harry potter yet. i could just be a sad child and torrent it, but it's just not the same experience as watching in a cinema with friends. and i saw a gif of ron in the first/second harry potter film - he was so tubby and cute pigging out on chicken! harry, hermione and ron were so adorable when they were in the first film - now the guys have turned out to be not so cute, but emma is really pretty now *.* and harry potter pick up lines! <3

also i think i watched almost all of wong fu's videos - they're so dnm and easy to relate to and i love the descriptions they put :') my favourite is probably these four walls.
bye for now ~~~