#159- Update

Things happen, sometimes you just have to stop, pray and hope for the best.
i think this shall be a short post, so thanks for all the messages everyone esp happy apple. your card was so nice and i felt so loved so thank you happy apple =D (i think i shall stop dieting for a while now)

highlight of this week: stealing my bro's most prized possession (aka ThuvLuv's pen) and surprisingly im not upset with school. although there are upcoming assessments i'm not too stressed so maybe that's a good sign
quick quotes to end this post:

"Nightmares will lead you to pain and suffering but you will be awake once more and gain peace to cleanse your fear" 

"Do not seek the answers that cannot be given to you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer."

俺ら、頑張ってさ、夢追っていこうぜ。最後の最後まで、諦めないで。
We should give it our all and follow our dreams. Until the end of the end, never give up. ~ Buzzer Beat

 

#158 - i'll say my piece/

lots of stuff happened today. firstly, sadness. seeing people who seem emotionally detached cry makes you want to cry too. but it's nice to know we have support.

secondly, i had my first free and 2u class today! :) i like frees. damn you keely for telling me to go room 40, too mean ==" i'm a bit disappointed people really do waste the frees... unfortunately we have frees at the same time as (very disruptive) year 12s >.> best things about the free was 1/ i popped my very smug face around my old class to smirk and saw people groaning about the boring and long double period, muahaha (: and 2/ i actually did not waste the free! :3

german exchange students! =D their english is soooo good. and i'm currently envying their ridiculously good genes. and chasing them secretly x)

and i cannot emphasise how much i agree with this.

# 157- Untitled v2

okay so it's been a while...again, and as always i seem to conjure up an excuse for my absence ^^
but seriously, this time i've been a really good kid. how? well i've finished phys prac and extension presentation- time to rehearse it!
----
so after rehearsing it, what else is there to do? rehearse it more? it's kinda hard when you're partner is gone. i hope tmr works out well, like the transition between the different parts of our presentation and hopefully the video i made isnt that bad. sigh, time to volunteer to go first!

on another note, it's not raining anymore ): i shall miss the wednesday study sesh and i actually got work done last time. looking forward to elisa's masterfood themed party except that means i need to lose weight and do we have to dress accordingly?

shall leave you all with a photo of my cool balloon that better gave me- thanks a million! oh and the other person in the photo is tracy, i think she has joined the blazer crowd

#156 - a new chapter.

photo: the story begins

so here we are. the end of a chapter, and the beginning of another in this life.

i liked today. despite most of the teachers droning on about the last term of prelim. slightly daunting... i don't want next term to arrive. however, i saw my fellow amigos =D t'was nice. it was quite funny when mr p was enthusiastically talking and then - a testepop. i never knew people in their late fifties could get testepops until mr p, hahaha ^^

and the rain!. i really feel free when i walk in the rain, sharing an umbrella with a good friend, even though my bag gets wet (:

let the rain come down, make a brand new ground, let the rain come down tonight - sara bareilles

also yesterday i went to state library again with zoe. everytime i go, i am so productive. i loved upstairs. thanks zoe for discovering such an awesome place =D <3 they had the sydney morning herald photos 1440 exhibition there - all the photos were so beautiful and thought provoking. there was a really good one that won first prize in world press. the story behind it really... gets a reaction from people who read it. i'm about to go and rant and rage about why women are still treated like crap everywhere, but it's not really going to get anywhere and not going to change anything so i won't say more. you be the judge.

on a brighter note, j. and i have amazingly similar minds on trains.
*cute looking stranger gets on train*
-we both stop talking and stare idiotically for a few seconds and then turn to look at each other-
"zomg did you think he was cute?!" / "zomg his smile is so nice! =D" -melt-
"yeahh!! and i was just thinking that!"
we're both wallowing in shallowness >=]

and also: masterchef - wtf. why are people with no talent still in the competition?!! billy :( :( i hate all the women in the competition, and that's saying something, because i am a huge feminist. but those women - arghh they piss me off. all they do is cry and weep their way and the judges just don't judge properly because they're sympathetic. such a joke.

#155- it sucks...

it sucks :
- when you realise how badly you've procrastinated these holidays
- when you realise how screwed you are for certain subjects
- when you've been capped for a week and you still have another week to go
- when you want to revive your baking obsession but you can't because your oven is dead

anyhow onto a nicer topic, come tuesday i shall be carrying a box full of these..

despite the wind, i'm glad i helped with the stringing of these cranes =D
anyhow i should keep this post short so bye for now!

#154 - ramble

it seems like only yesterday when it was the first day of the holidays.

what the heck, why does time pass so fast now and at school, almost every period i would look at the clock and hope that time would pass quickly but it just seemed to drag on forever, every second passing by at the speed of a fat tortoise waddling -_-

sighhhhh
i wonder if i did anything productive at all.. the days passed by like a beautiful dream that unfortunately has to come to an end.

plus i hate maths. the only thing next to the ancient thesis (deliberately avoiding as a result of the ridiculous 2k word length + footnoting+ writing and because i can't understand the historic book i'm reading from T__T) which i haven't started on/looked at all holidays. i was always shithouse at it, tried in vain, when it came to exams - fail, just can't answer the questions. now i'm literally on the verge of quitting and not giving a damn about it at all, couldn't care less about whatever i get- i find even 2u so overwhelmingly difficult and so time-consuming. i'm just not made for logic. and calculations.

anyway i just wanted to wish publicly: happy birthday to tess, dad and shajith (who will never read this) for the 13th! :)

+ lady gaga concert!!! my dad sort of saw her, there were heaps of fans. waaaaa :( i wish i went =[ apparently town hall went mad and everyone dressed really gaga-esque. she got two pages on mX too.
is it weird i sometimes feel closer to people who i don't see often but i wasn't close to them when i did see them often - and also that i sometimes feel very distant and estranged from people i see daily? i guess we just take each other for granted sometimes... like we're under the illusion we'll be together and near forever, because it seems that way..

i also feel sad i haven't watched harry potter yet. i could just be a sad child and torrent it, but it's just not the same experience as watching in a cinema with friends. and i saw a gif of ron in the first/second harry potter film - he was so tubby and cute pigging out on chicken! harry, hermione and ron were so adorable when they were in the first film - now the guys have turned out to be not so cute, but emma is really pretty now *.* and harry potter pick up lines! <3

also i think i watched almost all of wong fu's videos - they're so dnm and easy to relate to and i love the descriptions they put :') my favourite is probably these four walls.
bye for now ~~~

#153- 1 week to go

well there's only 1 more week until school starts. productivity level : ZERO

and because it's the holidays i like to spend time thinking about random stuff and eating....lots of eating which is kinda why im insanely overweight atm. you can't deny it when you weigh more than the most seductive girl at baulko aka Kelvin Tong T__T (i gained 5kg in like 3 weeks FML and its weird cos according to my dodgey bathroom scales i have lost 2 kg in one day -im amazing =D)

anyhow lately i've been thinking about the meaning of names, i think it was because i was attempting to come up with a cool jersey name but unfortunately i lack creativity ]; so if you have any ideas for my ugly name leave it in the  fail shoutbox- note caps doesn't work

okay, so i was bored and i somehow had this flashback to when i was in year 6 cos we had to do this homework about our name i.e. find the meaning of it, famous person with your name, write a poem about it, etc

below is the meaning of my first name, and doesn't the hebrew meaning suit my last name =D okay so 1 more flashback- in year seven my scripture teacher complimented me because of my name. at first it was random cos it was our first class and she was just marking the roll but i actually knew what she was talking about (i was quite proud of myself)

301. SHIR-LEE (שִׁיר-לִי): Hebrew name meaning "song is mine."
     
302. SHIRLEY: English surname transferred to forename use, derived from the name of various places composed of the Old English elements scir "bright" and leah "clearing, meadow," hence "bright meadow."

 as taken from 20 000-names.com


okay before i end this post my achievement list has like nothing

1. maths hw
2. finished stringing 650 cranes shall upload photo in next post
3. finished reading othello -yay now its full of post-it notes  (:

what i have started list:

1. halfway done phys experiment
2. started chem notes
3. did some chem questions
4. read eco textbook

#152 - to get started, it's all uncharted

destination: slnsw.
saw viv at redfern and we went to st james station which is so pretty and greeeeen :D i didn't know homeless people lived in the tunnel next to it, and when i walked past all the small belongings and their makeshift beds, i really thought they were truly forgotten by the damn government.
we walked for a bit and found the state library. you can't bring "big bags" inside, so there were lockers outside where you could put your belongings. the library was really pretty and big and i was super motivated to start making notes. and i can just mention, the resources, esp. the legal ones which we were there for, were amazing. well for me, there were a zillion journals and books to go through, unfortunately, viv had ... a meagre amount, which she managed :D proud of you!

info overload


viv nerdin' it out


awesome mannikin at slnsw made out of tags




got fed junk food by my dad at lunch :3 window shopped happily and saw two really good dancers near wynyard outside westfield. bboy + awesome acrobatic skills = soooo good, was in fangirl mode for the rest of the day ^^ also walked past the channel 7 studios in martin place, and saw a presenter filming the 4.30/5.00 news live, t'was awesome seeing his face on the big tv screen outside the studio =D is it weird i also have the autographs of some of the channel seven presenters...well, my dad got them :S
i noticed something today: the disadvantaged ones are always outside the mega-big successful stores in the city, hoping that someone, anyone, would give a little. and everyone just goes past not giving a damn. just wish they'll be a tiny bit more compassionate, i feel like shit everytime i see them sitting in dejection on the streets, helpless and relying on compassion which never arrives.... i have no idea how they can survive - and yet they're another group that's forgotten :(
and also i realised today after a dnm convo that i really hate it when people say their family is pov, or they're pov. misused. i'm an misuser of "cute", i admit though. but the "i'm so pov," that most people say is bullshit. i doubt it. i realised i used to say that a lot, but it was true to some extent, i think i might be still. who knows? anyway, so when people say that, and their families are average income earners, or one of their parents work and get decent pay and can get by, then they're not poor. poorness, in terms of wealth and possessions, is like the people on the streets, or when there's no source of income in the family except government payments, or when one parent works and gets far below the average/decent pay.
anyway, end of my happy-sad-ranty-sort-of-contradictive post:

#151- Cleaning

okay this a really jumbled post so sorry if i confuse you
cleaning is a form of:
clean

verb /klēn/ 
cleaned, past participle; cleaned, past tense; cleaning, present participle; cleans, 3rd person singular present

1. Make (something or someone) free of dirt, marks, or mess, esp. by washing, wiping, or brushing
• - clean your teeth properly after meals
• - chair covers should be easy to clean
• - we cleaned Uncle Jim up and made him presentable
• - he always expected other people to clean up after him
• - Anne will help with the cleaning

2. Remove the innards of (fish or poultry) prior to cooking ~taken from the www

Anyhow this is my latest form of procrastination, I spent the past 3 days cleaning-sigh but now it’s time to accomplish everything on my to-do list EXCEPT no.6 “Pay Bills at Australia Post”- who else received one of those ‘Things to do today’ from Australia Post =D

So instead of writing up a to-do list on blogger I shall write a ‘What I have accomplished list’. so far my list comprises of....

1.    Finished school maths HW, I did tutor HW last week except we had a test so we didn’t mark it. I’m not looking forward to getting my mark back. Lanny has such high expectations for me and I already made 2 silly mistakes, I forgot to write a 2 for general solution and then when I was doing a calculus question I multiplied it by an extra 3~ FML it was a challenging question as well and I knew how to do ))):

Plans for tmr: get together with regular Thursday study crew + attempt to buy sorrow cake (: shall get test back and enter my depression phase- oh wells!

Must do: get together with Issy so we can finish English extension, nts re-watch angels and demons!
and a big thankyou to a good friend of mine for getting me half price tickets for Harry Potter + also to a certain someone who helped me with physics home experiment. something i realised yesterday: i have no commone sense but according to viv "common sense does not exist" (:

shall leave you all with some nice words, taken from my local church
"Accountants may manage your tax but only Jesus can cover your life"

#150 - these nights...

i've stayed up to watch wimbledon with my dad. currently i am very disappoint. all the players i rooted for just died and failed me. i'm referring to: tomic, rafa, tsonga, sharapova Σ(￣。￣ﾉ)ﾉ not happy jan. esp sad when bitter texted me joyfully throughout the match :(
also went to archy's party on sat. quite fun (: but i never realised people were so ... dirty minded:P and most of us are officially terrible at bothering to assemble a costume. and i officially hate the phrase, "get in there." <--- still don't fully understand exactly what it means, since a zillion people told me different versions, but it's really really irritating. also made new friends there, and saw a dear old good buddy who i hadn't seen in more than a year and a half: gow!! my favourite mad genius, especially with her hair (: <3



i am feeling more awesome too. i've actually decided to type up dot points and summaries for bio + chem now instead of leaving them last minute. my first baby steps to non-last-minute-cramming :D anddddd a very nice excerpt i found whilst browsing the beautiful interwebs. i read it when i am in doubt of my abilities (which i am, frequently):

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously
give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others. "
a return to love - marianne williamson

NB: the god part is like " ...." i don't fully agree with it, but i'll leave it as it is.

#149- Sorrow Cake + JB-Hi5's birthday bash

heyy guys,
well it's time for me to buy a sorrow cake which shall be titled 'HAPPY SORROW CAKE =) DW its only 20%' so jordon and arjuna lets enjoy this cake and learn from our mistakes so we can conquer 3U maths!

anyhow after enduring a 2hour yr12 trial test at tutoring, it was off to JB-HI5's house so we could celebrate her sweet 16th- Happy belated Bday and enjoy ISS. overall, it was a very fun and enjoyable game/night/party. so basically i made a pack with my 'bros'or otherwise known as the 'Shady Crew' - bad decision.
by making an alliance we thought we could ace the mystery together; the 'crew' aka me,  nancy, joanna jude and sangavi decided on the cardinal as the murder, but nancy was the murderer >>  she was so deceiving - sadface. oh wells, fun fun fun experience, i even managed to deceive people into believing that i was the murderer - hehehe im such a troll =D