‎If you remember me, then I don’t care if everyone else forgets.- Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore



Tuesday, October 30, 2012

#333- Oz Lotto

Not sure if you follow the lottery but tonight it was 70million and it's jackpot-ed to 100 million for next tuesday i.e. my last day of my HSC exams.

This morning, my mum and I went to buy a ticket, an auto pick to be correct and on our last game we qualified for Division 7 (phew) although we only made $2.95 profit.

I guess I'm going to splurge next week and see if I live up to my cursed status (I claim to be plagued with bad luck esp when it comes in the form of being hit repeatedly by balls. note I'm just at the wrong place at the wrong time)

Also funfact I have been technically gambling since I was six months old. My mum said that at the time there was a big lottery on and she had me pick out the numbers but we didn't win. You see I'm an omen.

Til then and I envy all those students who take humanities instead of science.

Thursday, October 25, 2012

#331- Marathon

Hello my beloved readers.

Wanna hear a story of mine (sorry you don't have a choice dw it's quick)?

I kinda 'got up' from my 20 hr drama marathon... yeah don't ask. I was wallowing in despair after farewelling my partner in crime for the past 13 years aka Maths. Remember (-1)^0.5 <3 Maths
So being me, I calmed myself down by watching a drama that I've always wanted to watch but never got the chance to. NB I don't do drama marathons everyday okay... that's reserved for after hsc btw I do have self control it's just that I haven't watched any dramas for the past month (yes this is an achievement for me) so I decided to indulge myself.

Anyhow starting from 3pm up until 2:30am it was to do with Dream High which liken I to Glee except I've never watched a full episode so I can't say because I only ever see snippets but better cos its k-pop (: Also even though the cast is packed full of idols, they can surprisingly act and I didn't find myself cringing at some sloppy scene with melodramatic and implausible acting.

Continuing on with my story because in case you haven't noticed the above numbers don't match the 20hrs I spent in total. Went to bed at around 2:30 after my mum went to the bathroom (yes she goes at horrid hours) and she told me to sleep which was upsetting because I wanted to finish it all without breaks. Woke up at 6:45am, my body clock is programmed so that I instinctively wake up at this hour (weird) and then it was breakfast dining with the cast of Dream High as I continued where I left off. I had a 9:30 dentist appointment but when I got back...... more Dream High > > until 4pm today. I feel accomplished!

The moral of my story is that if you're bored and you want to watch some dramas then I recommend Dream High if not at least listen to their OST because it's really good.
Some of my favourites are below:
 
MAIN THEME SONG!!!
 
One of the cutest/funniest/adorkable moments in the drama. The guy making the strange facial expression is called Jason who is the romantic interest of the girl singing. I thought some background info will lift your experience.
yeah in case you can't tell, I ship these two characters <3

Sung by one of my fav up and coming actors yes he is an actual actor with an amazing voice btw he's from Will it snow for Christmas?

Monday, October 22, 2012

#330 - Farewell

......to (HIGH SCHOOL) MATHS FOREVER!!!! =D
You shall not be missed!

3/7

Oh yeah, I have definitely decided I shall not be doing something maths-related in my future. I can envision myself as an extremely miserable person if I did end up that path. Thus a bright arts-y future awaits (:

Today someone told me I looked taller...and I was like =D. I'll attribute my tallness (more like...better posture) to Pilates. Wtf I do Pilates? Yep, started doing it in the comfort of my humble abode, alongside cardio! I recently turned into a fitness nut, using exercise to relax my mind. So far it's going great; I don't give up that easily anymore. It's a purely psychological thing! And as RĂ©mi Gillard's motto goes: C'est en faisant n'importe quoi qu'on devient n'importe qui. It's by doing whatever, that one becomes whoever

Oh and I am drowning in guilt because I haven't done any essays for the last week and a bit and Ms K practically begged for some! Eeek. If only I didn't abhor JFK ! Okay self, get the hell to work and be more freaking motivated!omfggggggggg why is there so much effin' bloody content for ancient!!!!!! -____- *head explode*

PS. *delivers cyber hug to Bitter* can't wait till a long awaited phone convo! =)

*swoons over Lea Michele's voice* How I roll before an exam!

Friday, October 19, 2012

#329- Draft

For some reason I went through our draft folder and wow sweet you have a lot of drafts (:

First of cheer up Sweet (: I'm giving you my telepathic sympathy and we're long overdue for our phone dnm so I shall call after hsc so heads up!
 
Just like Sweet I'm also very sensitive about some of my features which I would like to change if given the opportunity. In the past there have been people that have pointed them out to me and yes like Sweet I am well aware of it BUT there's no need to tell me something about myself because Bitter's biggest critic is Bitter. Our parallels even extend to (yeah I'm doing a Mod A here sorry) the fact that the people that told me are those that I would classify as 'friends' some loosely others more intimately but like Jennifer Livingston I've built up a thick skin but that doesn't mean that I still don't take offense to it. Moral of my story, is to think about what you say and how it would be feel if someone said the exact same thing to you. It doesn't matter if there is no malicious intent behind it because once those words are spoken you can never take it back and for those like me, well we're good listeners and so we'll remember it not that I'll forgive you for it.
~End of mini rant

Moving on to more lighter topics, I just spent $?00 on skin care not that I regret it but Better was with me at the time so we told her mum about it they also spent a large sum so forgive me if you don't get the most desirable results because I'm using it for the first time as well. Also to the guy that I talked to first, IMPROVE YOUR CUSTOMER SERVICE gosh do know how insulting it feels to be told indirectly that I don't want to service you because you don't think that I have the capacity to pay for your products. The lady, who is also the manager was wonderful. I have nothing but nice words for her epecially with all the freebies she built into my package (:

 Below is something that I wrote ages ago and I'm sure why I never posted it but I thought that the picture was quite hilarious and the as for the quotes... well it has been a while since I've posted up some quotes.



Ultimately, aren't we all just talking monkeys with an attitude problem?  ~"Uncle" Ben, as seen on quotes‑r‑us.org

Man was created a little lower than the angels, and has been getting lower ever since.  ~Josh Billings
Nobody knows the age of the human race, but everybody agrees that it is old enough to know better.  ~Author Unknown    

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

#328 - De(spite)

Anyone else happy that we'll never have to study English again?!!!!!! =D 
I reckon it was okay, though P1 essay question was a tad "shocking" but doable, P2 was in general, answerable - but mod B - what what what?! Anyway, I'm over it, TWO down!!!

Remember this? Well this will be relevant below:


 I would usually encrypt a post like this, but I'm thoroughly annoyed / hurt / irritated by something that happened.
You see in the above video, people realised that if someone is overweight, they have NO right to say it to the person. Obviously 1) they know, 2) they feel hurt, 3) it exerts a negative influence on society, 4) it shows what a pathetic excuse of a human being you are, 5) you're not flawless yourself, so what gives you the right to talk shit to someone? Now I would just like to say something too, which is relevant to the video. Today I got laughed at for having "small eyes". And do you what sucked the most? The people who laughed were the ones I considered "friends". And before I had previously mentioned that I classified friends into 3 levels. Sadly, the people who laughed encompassed all 3 levels. And the thing was, I just couldn't bear it, but how could I object, and retort, saying "Fuck you!" or the like, or just feel really teary before a major exam? Maybe I'm too sensitive, but this is a part of who I am.
Now, when people tease me about the size of my eyes, though I may be silent or laugh it off, IT FUCKING HURTS and I will forever / temporarily hold a grudge against you depending on who you are. There we go. I honestly don't consider my eyes to be that small, but maybe in people's eyes they are. Fine, to the general consensus my eyes are small. BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE DOUBLE LIDS <- if you're Asian, I suppose you would know, since the stupid Asian culture perceives this to be beautiful and it is like a make-or-break central factor in deciding if you're pretty or not (especially if you're a girl, clearly I'm not). And on topic, I hate the double standards. It's fine for guys to have monolids (exemplified in the many guys with single lids who are successful singers / actors / celebrities) but it's not for girls (who get plastic surgery to have "bigger eyes" and conform to that stupid bigoted view that big eyes = beauty, small = ugly. ). Fucking double standards that can obviously be seen in all the Asian girls who are actresses / singers - who do you know have monolids? Like NEXT TO NO ONE. Hence that's why I admire super models like Liu Wen, Shu Pei and Xiao Wen Ju (who I might add, has very unique and beautiful eyes. BUT DOES ANYONE DISS HER FOR HAVING SMALL EYES? NO. IN FACT THE PEOPLE IN THE FASHION INDUSTRY FUCKING LOVE IT.) who have carved out a successful career, despite their monolids. And, well, my mum is double and my dad's mono, and guess what? I got my dad's monolids. And you know, I am damn proud of them. I wouldn't change them for the world (sadly in the past I had considered otherwise). It just happens that monolids lack that crease, and thus their eyes are smaller than the eyes of people who have double lids. So yeah, the incident happened when I squinted to show my annoyance after I was very rudely told to shut up my reciting - when in fact I hadn't even been that loud, and someone (very disappointed who this was) commented about the small size of my eyes. And then, everyone were all in a fit in giggles for quite a long while. How perfectly fucking lovely - I felt time had slowed down and felt like I had lost all sense of belonging and felt so lonely despite the fact I was surrounded by people everywhere. Everyone thought my small eyes were so funny. Everyone except me. I did not find my small eyes a funny issue. Let's relate it to the newsreader story: yes, she's overweight. Do you tell her she's overweight? NO YOU DO NOT. Does she know? YES. Ridicule her physical appearance, and you are a nasty piece of work. I think this applies to me here: do you tell me I have small eyes? NO YOU DON'T. Do you think I don't know? WELL OBVIOUSLY I FUCKING KNOW. Say it to me, and I consider you a nasty piece of work, because that's what you are. And god, I can actually feel tears welling up as I type this. These "small eyes" are an inherent part of me and I will never get surgery to appease society, and I will not tolerate at being laughed at for having "small eyes". I accept them, but what I will NOT accept if when people are spiteful about physical appearances. I know some people say things, and not realise it hurts. Well, you should always think before you say, asking yourself, "How will this affect the person I'm saying it to?"And the saying "sticks and stones can break my bones, but words will never hurt me" is full of bullshit; unless you absolutely don't give a flying fuck about what people think of you at all, WORDS DO HURT. And what right do people have to diss the physical flaws of others? I'm sure no one's fucking flawless either. so shut your trap.
But honestly, I wish there was just some way where I could stick up for myself and say "what you just said was really hurtful", and break off ties. But yet I'm too chicken to say so, because I'm a coward and still have to see these people for a little longer. Since I'm sensitive myself, I always try my best to act like a decent human being and not ridicule / jeer / sneer / make fun of others and their physical appearances (flaws, you could say).
Anyway summing up my point: rather than the people you aren't close to / barely talk to, it's the people you consider yourself closest to, that hurt you the most. This is most definitely true in many cases. And clearly, I've chosen the wrong people to be my friends, on any of the three levels. And if you laugh at me / have a go at me for having small eyes (or make fun of anything related to my physical appearance), I will probably hold a grudge (perhaps, even detest you) for the rest of my life. Though I might say nothing about hurtful incidents, I don't forget or forgive easily either; in fact I still remember some very hurtful words that have been said to me many years ago about my intellectual capacity.  To be frank: it's fucking rude. Behave like a decent human being. Seeing your academic prowess, show a little consideration before you open your mouth to say relatively spiteful things, even if you didn't intend to hurt someone. And treat others the way you want to be treated. And thumbs up to Jennifer Livingston for standing up for herself. I only wish I was brave enough to do the same and not tolerate the shit people say to me. Oh and the pun about my "bad eye sight", am I sure that it's not just my "eye size"? HAHAHAHAHAHA that's the most fucking funniest pun I've ever heard!  NOT. Honestly cannot wait until I go to uni, and find like-minded people  like me / "true friends" with EMPATHY.
Rant over.

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

#327- Papa?

Quick post today

Somebody please explain all the papa references/jokes to me, I didn't get them back in '10 and as you can kind of tell, I still don't understand them. (yeah I'm slow).

Note to self, despite your BOS number, seating is not always arranged alphabetically. I learnt that the hard way after spending two minutes running up and down the aisles looking for my seat ):

Also I got my retainers today and now I understand what you all go through. Full-time for two year T____T I will just have to void that for the upcoming 3 weeks.

Anyway I'm off to cram because there's modules to panic about and then it's eco. Til then and remember party hard but study harder!

Sunday, October 14, 2012

#326 - Left-wing

Wow......so time sure flies.
Anyway, I was browsing YouTube as usual, and I was surprised to see Gillard's rant to Abbott at close to a million views. So I watched it and I can just say for Abbott:

BURNNNNNNNNNN.
apply cold water to burned area xD

I don't always agree with Gillard's politics, and I'm not even sure if I liked her very much, but her speech was extremely empowering for women all around in Australia (: She seemed far more upfront and very honest about her anger. A fine performance (perhaps, the finest) by the PM


Also, good luck to everyone for English tomorrow! :D

> Feeling the stress? TALK ON THE PHONE :) I just had a nice hour long chat with R. Initially it started off with her stressing about exams (funnily enough, it wasn't about English), then it moved onto gossip (heheheh) we heard and general life thoughts ("Let's see each other every day after HSC finishes! We can have sleep overs, come to each other houses, go shopping etc etc." I CANNOT WAIT.) . T'was such a great de-stresser! I highly recommend it. You can have a giggle and it really gets your mind relaxed, and you feel motivated again! (: And everyone sending around good luck and "all the best for the upcoming exams" texts are super sweet! Thanks to everyone who sent me those ;D sorry I'm too cbf to send one to everyone, but everyone knows I wish them the best =)

And I really am not too fussed - no matter what I get, if I flunk some exams (why hello, maths!), as long as I achieve my personal aim, (even if people don't really think I did well), I won't care. It's something I would be personally happy about, I won't compare myself with others.And that should apply to everyone too! Don't be down after an exam, just move on and do your very best. Don't let others dictate if you did well or not - if you thought you did, YOU DID. Most importantly, have a positive mindset! (this sounds so funny coming from someone like me, an absolute stressball about exams, but please do listen, and never fear, I'm going to apply this to myself very well :P)

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I LOVE GOOGLE! (little Nemo)

Friday, October 12, 2012

#325- 2 years and 10 months later

First of all happy birthday V!!!!! you know when we'll celebrate it together so til then~

Anyhow today I got my braces off (clap clap clap)
Before: A photo taken pre- Elisa's

After (i.e. just then):
Omg my face is so puggy, I can just imagine Sweet pinching my cheeks speaking of which my cheeks and teeth are sore ):

Yeah short post today and Good luck for Monday guys!

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

#324 - All of me

HAHAHAHAHA I just found my friend's 18th birthday invitation cards! Where the theme was obviously Nicolas Cage!  I think we can all hazard a guess at which card was mine ;D

Milestone
Quite appropriately named at this point in time, I suppose. ALL OF MEEEEEEEE! =D

Sunday, October 7, 2012

#323- 3 years and counting

Today is Yonghwa's 3rd anniversary since he debuted as a an actor in You're Beautiful. I remember that that was back in the Girra days when  I was watching the drama as it aired (never do this, the anticipation kills you big time) and I fangirled so much with my korean friends. I feel a bit embarrassed looking back now because I consider the hype (I'm guilty of this) to be really overrated since the drama as a whole wasn't that good. Sorry Yonghwa but you're acting wasn't good- I have to honest her T^T

But yeah, Yonghwa debuted before C.N BLUE did but I am very glad that I was introduced to you through dramas and since then I have followed your music which has only enlightened me about your freakishly good composing skills and song writing skills.

Thank you!

P.S on the off chance that someone worthwhile read this, please bring CN BLUE to Sydney so I can attend one of their concerts, I opted not to go to the K-pop music fest last year because of all the other bands. 

I shall leave you all with one of his composed songs which  I absolutely adore as I said to Better once "they're not just pretty boys"

Saturday, October 6, 2012

#322 - Bet

Waking up is a problem for me - some days I get up early, others I get up in the afternoon! And every time I say "I'm getting up at ____*insert time*" my dad always laughs because I always almost fail :(
So we bet money to see if I could get up today at 7.30.... And it didn't happen because I woke up to turn two alarms off and went back to sleep per usual! ==" have to pay him 50 bucks now >> sighhh 

Thursday, October 4, 2012

#321- Hallyu

I think I'm suffering from the same symptons as Sweet, my imagination/ability to be expressive has hit an all time low plus it doesn't help when you have a major English exam in just over a week's time.

Anyway the title is a k-pop reference meaning 'Korean Wave' or the k-pop craze that the world has been experiencing. I guess we're all no stranger to Psy's Gangnam Style (thank you Sweet for enlightening me about it) and as a k-pop fan I'd rather not acknowledge it although it's kinda hard when it's getting so much attention from the likes of Ellen and even Sunrise </3 and gosh X-factor as well. The saddest thing is that even Nole did a Gangnam dance during an exhibition match in Taiwan this week.

BUSAN STYLE!! Yonghwa <3 I'll forgive for this (lol ofc you're excused)

P.S if a certain someone is reading this then please do not put Oppa Gangnam style on our formal playlist esp the one with Hyuna doing some vocals

#320 - Mundane

Hmmm I don't really know what to blog about...

- saw friends
- attended a birthday party
- learned to use the stove. yay 
- randomly looked down at my stomach and realised that the HSC made me gain weight bcos i emotionally eat every day! ))): my stomach is so squishy now.... and it expands up to 5 cm when i eat. when it's expanded, i look pregnant. LOL. but yeah :( 
- woke up this morning to the sound of my phone buzzing every thirty seconds. i checked my email and turned out i was spamming everyone  ==" had no idea why, until i did a whole computer scan and found malware and three trojan viruses which were promptly removed. blarfff. so, do not open emails from me. i barely send emails 
- partially gave up on maths after doing past papers and realising i am quite atrocious at it. urgh, i shall have to put all my efforts into pwning humanities to compensate. essays take forever to do and thank god i finished bloody workplace!
- omgosh i just want hsc to be over!!!


 
:)