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Tuesday, November 4, 2014
#531 - Going, going, gone
Hiya. *like three weeks later*
Update on life:
For almost a year, I have been saying to my parents that I would definitely be leaving them to go overseas to improve my so-so speaking skills (and experience a new culture of course and ADVENTURE! + independently travel for the first time ever?!). My dad thought I was kidding, just saying big stuff and it wouldn't happen. Well it did. Got confirmed by uni a few days ago.
I am going on short-term exchange!(!!!!!) :D Added all the extra exclamation marks since I can scarcely contain my excitement. Seriously keen. Extra bit of awesomeness: a friend's coming along as well so I'm not lonely either :) although I won't be sticking to P 24/7 because I'll go crazy. Just slightly annoyed that the application deadline was so late since airfare is fairly expensive now due to the close proximity between the booking date and the date of departure and seats are filling up fast. Even though the grant will help out a bit. Could be staying almost two months but to be honest, I wouldn't mind. I don't want to leave as soon as it's done. It'll be a while until I come back for the next time. We'll see how things go though. But I digress. First white Christmas? Hell yes. I must be the only person who thinks the dialect of the city people is actually really pretty and sophisticated but at least I'll be immersing myself in an environment where I'm constantly forced to speak the language. Whereas here, well, I don't think I would make a great deal of improvement to get to near-native level. I can't force it here. Hopefully I won't be scammed either. But I feel like travel is something I'm willing to spend on. Life goal: save so I can travel everywhere and visit all continents.
And let's go off on a tangent. Let's talk politics. I know everyone has different political views. Whatever your view is, it's totally fine - you're entitled to your own opinion. Dissent is healthy and normal. But what I absolutely cannot stand or tolerate is when someone persistently forces his or her view down my throat as the supreme perspective and does their very best to obliterate and denigrate my belief into nothingness. So let's just say, I lean left. It's not like I go around to right-leaning supporters and say "You right-wing bastard. Can't understand why you believe in all their crap which they disguise as policies and their countless broken election promises." Otherwise you're just a big-time douche. With an irritating superiority complex to boot.
Is it bad to be ambitious? I feel some disappointment that I didn't actively pursue my ambitions. Who knows what could've been? What I could've been, a year from now? What could've happened? These could've been reality, definite things - but it's not. It's just another impossible wish that isn't going to come true because of the path I decided to take. Once the chance passes you by, it's gone. You won't get another shot. I guess I'm lucky because there is another next time. I really shouldn't fear judgment. But I still do. In silly irrational things. Why can't I just be brave. I guess it's all about taking one step at a time to make yourself a better you, day by day.
And what I've discovered recently: I don't warm up to naturally cold people. Sure, they can be really nice when you get to know them but if you're always going to have a frosty and icy attitude - well, how can we ever become friends if I can never break your wall. If I was in their position, I wouldn't be icy. In what universe can that be considered welcoming and friendly? What a total contradiction to the position you've assumed.
Something that changed my thinking forever:
"Isn't it funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back, everything is different..." - C.S.Lewis
Update on life:
For almost a year, I have been saying to my parents that I would definitely be leaving them to go overseas to improve my so-so speaking skills (and experience a new culture of course and ADVENTURE! + independently travel for the first time ever?!). My dad thought I was kidding, just saying big stuff and it wouldn't happen. Well it did. Got confirmed by uni a few days ago.
I am going on short-term exchange!(!!!!!) :D Added all the extra exclamation marks since I can scarcely contain my excitement. Seriously keen. Extra bit of awesomeness: a friend's coming along as well so I'm not lonely either :) although I won't be sticking to P 24/7 because I'll go crazy. Just slightly annoyed that the application deadline was so late since airfare is fairly expensive now due to the close proximity between the booking date and the date of departure and seats are filling up fast. Even though the grant will help out a bit. Could be staying almost two months but to be honest, I wouldn't mind. I don't want to leave as soon as it's done. It'll be a while until I come back for the next time. We'll see how things go though. But I digress. First white Christmas? Hell yes. I must be the only person who thinks the dialect of the city people is actually really pretty and sophisticated but at least I'll be immersing myself in an environment where I'm constantly forced to speak the language. Whereas here, well, I don't think I would make a great deal of improvement to get to near-native level. I can't force it here. Hopefully I won't be scammed either. But I feel like travel is something I'm willing to spend on. Life goal: save so I can travel everywhere and visit all continents.
And let's go off on a tangent. Let's talk politics. I know everyone has different political views. Whatever your view is, it's totally fine - you're entitled to your own opinion. Dissent is healthy and normal. But what I absolutely cannot stand or tolerate is when someone persistently forces his or her view down my throat as the supreme perspective and does their very best to obliterate and denigrate my belief into nothingness. So let's just say, I lean left. It's not like I go around to right-leaning supporters and say "You right-wing bastard. Can't understand why you believe in all their crap which they disguise as policies and their countless broken election promises." Otherwise you're just a big-time douche. With an irritating superiority complex to boot.
Is it bad to be ambitious? I feel some disappointment that I didn't actively pursue my ambitions. Who knows what could've been? What I could've been, a year from now? What could've happened? These could've been reality, definite things - but it's not. It's just another impossible wish that isn't going to come true because of the path I decided to take. Once the chance passes you by, it's gone. You won't get another shot. I guess I'm lucky because there is another next time. I really shouldn't fear judgment. But I still do. In silly irrational things. Why can't I just be brave. I guess it's all about taking one step at a time to make yourself a better you, day by day.
And what I've discovered recently: I don't warm up to naturally cold people. Sure, they can be really nice when you get to know them but if you're always going to have a frosty and icy attitude - well, how can we ever become friends if I can never break your wall. If I was in their position, I wouldn't be icy. In what universe can that be considered welcoming and friendly? What a total contradiction to the position you've assumed.
Something that changed my thinking forever:
"Isn't it funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back, everything is different..." - C.S.Lewis
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