‎If you remember me, then I don’t care if everyone else forgets.- Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore



Tuesday, June 28, 2011

#148 - greek drama & pungent fumes.

greek drama performance! everyone's costumes were awesome, grim reaper, frogs etc. many giant phallises around xD also memorable quotes like "splitting their arses open"
when we were on stage, there was a very fail reaction from the audience. it was supposed to be comedy, AND ONLY 1-5 PEOPLE LAUGHED :( sighhhhhhhh we all looked like noobs compared to the first group, who were really over-dramatic and funny...... but yes it's over! photos of the masks before they were awesomely painted(:






in the afternoon, an old guy got into the carriage i was in. he had blue plastic on top of his jumper and pants forming something like a raincoat and he towed a striped grocery bag. all of us commuters standing stared at him, curious. a few other school aged kids sneered, making remarks, it was so obvious the sneers were was about him. three middle aged asian women wore smirks on their faces. and then everyone started to edge away, getting as far as they could from that strange person. i wondered why, not realising until around eight people had moved out the carriage to sit downstairs, and he sat down next to me and a friend. he emitted pungent fumes. it was terrible. it was unbearable, disgusting, awful. like the scent given off by a rotting animal and dreadful BO. now i could completely understand why everyone was so desperate to get away. he smelled so bad. the woman across me opened up the windows, but the smell still lingered and floated around us==" i can bear really loud people on their phones, screaming babies, fat prams, bogans, up-themselves construction workers, but i can't stand smelly people.... the worst people to journey with.

Monday, June 27, 2011

#147- Incomplete

so it seems as though there are many definitions of the word 'failure', when googled the results are as follows:

fail·ure
noun /ˈfālyər/ 
failures, plural
  1. Lack of success
  2. An unsuccessful person, enterprise, or thing
  3. Lack of success in passing an examination or test
  4. A grade that is not high enough to pass an examination or test
  5. The omission of expected or required action
  6. A lack or deficiency of a desirable quality
  7. The action or state of not functioning
  8. A sudden cessation of power
  9. The collapse of a business
english advanced assessment was today, and i was right in dreading it. i suppose in hindsight the question wasnt hard, its just that i didnt address the main parts of the question and therefore  = FAILURE ):
it's sad how stress eventuates in the lack of rationale behind our thoughts and this is what happened today.
what i did: write 3 and a bit pages of waffle ---> not writing fast enough ---> forced to cut out a whole paragraph worth of analysis + nice words T^T
sorry english teachers, it seems as though i have disappointed you all yet again- but i tried, i really did except there are no sympathy marks

but i must end this post on a positive note even though i'm feeling incredibly pessimistic atm so i shall leave you all with some nice quotes and remember guys life is about failure. it is our ability to perserve despite these adversities that makes us truly amazing


~`Starting from today, live only for the ones you love and love you in return. Life's too short to waste tears and time on unworthy people. You must live each day with your brightest smile; doing so, you would experience and feel... true happiness.`~
(hmmm in my case this would be about the pointless subject called english, but then again i think i failed maths as well T.T )

"Fate is like a strange, unpopular restaurant,
filled with odd waiters who bring you things you never asked for and don't always like."
Lemony Snicket - Horseradish: Bitter Truth You Cant Avoid.
 

Friday, June 24, 2011

#146 - eventful

i just love it when you're late to school because of transport delay and there are around four other people late with you. it makes your reason so much more plausible and you get out of writing a stupid note explaining your lateness.
also made a new friend in year 12, kyralee..? super nice, chirpy and so carefree, and she gave me valuable info about next year and all =]
and i realised the extent of the dislike the pink faced male-pmsing deputy has towards me. yeah so i'm late with other people and he snaps at me alone? such a m....f......
something i learnt today: your perception of people may be grossly incorrect. and you know how they say, "the quiet seemingly-nice ones always turn out for the worst?" well apparently that phrase just came true today. i didn't really believe this when J told me how her brother, who was at the school "H" knew two members of the bali nine, who were really quiet and nice in their school days - and look at how they turned out to be, today. i am so sad and disappointed in my obviously fail misconception. viv your opinion was right all along and i shouldn't have been so blinded for almost three years =(
also train guards! WHYYYYY DO THEY NOT SEE A DESPERATE PERSON ALMOST IN TEARS LOOKING AT THE CLOSING TRAIN DOORS AND NOT BEING ABLE TO GET IN BY A FEW SECONDS :'( :'(
+ MAD = zomggg. couldn't watch backstage, and also had to be quiet, not allowed to go out the music rooms for a long while =.= the performance itself was ... not as good as i expected to be, especially in the middle and best part - no idea how we were out so bad; maybe it was me speeding up, so sorry i let the whole team down =[ but we pulled through eventually, which takes skills! especially with a sliding cello, bright lights rendering sheet music close to unreadable, and a shitty rented grand piano
and string players! i definitely envy them the most out of all the musical kids. string instruments = WOWWW
+greek drama in three days!

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

#145- Just another random thought

i should stop worrying these days, but there's so much to worry about = me neglecting blogger....again! anyhow got phys back = a very disappointed me, almost had a heart attack cos my teacher didnt add it up correctly. chem is over, after stressing about english and english and chem i was kinda annoyed- its unfair that certain people found out about the test beforehand and its quite slack to those that had to sit the test first aka ME ):

sweet's post about animals kinda reminded me of tutoring in year6, my teacher was an animal rights activist and she was full vegan- she's amazing, anyhow we were shown very very graphic images and we needed a note as well.  but yes thats it for now. bye!

fact about bitter^^
i used to own 4 chickens, and a few months ago i saw two chickens roaming the streets of a suburb beginning with W and ending in Hills

Sunday, June 19, 2011

#144 - the forgotten ones: part one

part one of the forgotten ones: animals

since i am without an interesting issue in my life to write about, i'll write about animals - the truly forgotten ones.

firstly, about the live export of livestock. it's a forgotten story; it has never been in our minds. i know that i would have just continued with my daily life without giving a damn about it, happily carrying on eating succulent meat, and forever being in the dark, save for one animal rights campaigner who made a difference and got evidence from inside an indonesian abattoir to show the world what was really going on.


an abattoir is truly a disgusting place. especially if the policies and regulations regarding animal welfare are there but not enforced. in a muslim-dominated country like indonesia, the animals are supposed to be slaughtered without being stunned, which is fine, as long it's done in a humane and minimalistic way so the animal doesn't suffer. however this is not the case. so much for humane!

just go here if you want the evidence. *note: do not watch if you have a faint heart, it will make your stomach churn

the religion states this: before slaughtering, you should bless the animal. wtf is this then!! yes animals are animals, they are considered to be less than humans, some might even wonder, why are there such things like animal rights when there are many humans who don't have access to their rights? i feel very pissed off by reading news articles about the farmers who complain about losing income and blah blah blah due the suspension of the export. and even more annoyed when it was discovered that the organisation responsible for the live export trade knew about this for 10 years and more. and still chose to ignore it. and the government is rather useless too. come on, saying you're not going to trade with indonesia for 2 months isn't really a big step against this. they'll still practise putting the animals in little boxes, free to continue, without fear of any backlash, even saying that if the government doesn't trade with them, sure no problem. we have heaps of other potential countries who wish to trade with us. we don't need you. it's more like, you need us, because your economy is crumbling.

the saddest thing is that animals cannot protest, defend themselves from the sad fate that awaits them - being slaughtered with all their emotions and feelings still intact, able to feel every slash of the knife. what does this treatment exactly constitute? animal cruelty - a forgotten occurrence.

i am aware i sound like a pathetic wannabe-do-gooder at the moment for writing all this, especially because i am a meat eater myself and i barely bother to wonder about where the food i eat comes from, how their short life was, how they were slaughtered. however this is just my stance on the consequences that result from the live export of cattle and other animals.

so i just wrote a whole lot about live export. which is only one small part of the forgotten things.

secondly, the cruel use of animals as a joke, with the purpose to entertain.

take a look at this.



yeah thanks idiot who put this up on facebook. "haha look i just washed my puppy and now i'm hanging it out to dry" is not fking the bomb. and later apologizing only because the media picked it up and you got heaps of hate for it. as if the idiot was truly sorry for what he'd done. if he'd been truly sorry, he wouldn't have even done this in the first place anyway!

so let's just not pretend that these are not happening. and choose to take action, no matter how small. let's not forget.

Friday, June 17, 2011

#143- i participated in PISA

okay, it seems as though i've neglected blogger again, i'm sorry >< but in my defence i have been extremely busy~ sigh
anyhow yesterday i took part in the OECD Programme for International Student Assessment (PISA) which a study that compares and examines student performance in reading, mathematical and scientific literacy. so basically 15000 kids from across australia were randomly chosen to participate in this assessment... and im one of them. am i lucky or unlucky? missing out on school is bad, especially if you have a lot of upcoming exams and assessments, it's also sad that teachers dont bother to ask about research tasks as they expect you to just know it which equals me running around chasing after teachers so that i can bombard them with my many questions.

on another note im so screwed for english ict i hope i can finish the script soon. fact about Bitter ^^ i am a self-confessed noob at technology, i literally bombed the computer component of the PISA exam so if australia does poorly in that area then you know who to blame >>
anyhow im sorry for any grammatical errors in this post, i ceebs to edit it so i shall leave you all with some pics of the 'small gifts' that jordon and i received.





sadface ): my PISA man was dodgey

Monday, June 13, 2011

#142 - HAPPY 16TH BITTER^^

happy happy b'day bitter, hope you liked my fail trolling text 12 mins late =D and thanks for the awesome party + food! had heaps of fun~ like for example, swapping dresses with viv and looking like misfits(simply LIKE A BOSS), talking heaps, witnessing very painful slaps, meeting new people, seeing elisa after a very long time, and drinking a cup of water that had salt and pepper in it very fast because i was dying of thirst, not realising until i saw a very happy looking troll aka batter, laughing her head off. fact: she's also a very unwanted photo-bomber =.=

SCSC ^^ SO CUTE






















only good photo i have of bittersweet >.< and yikes...my face

painful-and-excruciating-to-watch-slaps to luke .... and look how happy bitter is :O


elisa and viv =D and someone's head (:


girl power!


BIRTHDAY GIRL


awesome foursome! except connie is looking the wrong way =~=


ahhh sicilian is so pretty(:






CAKEEE


hahah SHIGLEY


people (:


TESSSSS :)




and do you know it took me a very very long time uploading all these pics =_=

Sunday, June 12, 2011

#141- Its kinda bittersweet....

First of all, sweet and i would like to apologise for being incredibly lazy people. we neglected this blog so we promise to post more often it's just that school is being a real B**** lately.
anyhow, OMG yesterday ----> PARTY ^^ ehehehe i hope everyone had a wonderful and thank you for taking the time to celebrate my birthday. oh i checked gradelove lately and thanks to all who posted the really, really nice comments. hmm highlight of yesterday would be portia trolling joanna aka batter or batter trolling sweet =D and BIG THANK YOU to viv and connie aka better who helped me to organise everything

finally got to see sweet's d90 and its so pro im so jelly
shall leave you all with some memorable pics:

 shiseido products~ drools

i sigh at the effort of certain ppl
 my $89 now $60 pen from jordon, i was too scared to ask for a fountain pen
the star-man is my partial pressie from cedric, i wont acknowledge it cos it involves slave labour >>

the list that we composed in less than 15min ofc the real reason is because luke is too cool for me ): btw his commentary is at the end of each reason. OH and before i forget thanks for the cards, the messages are so amusing~

and thats it for now because i have an assessment/ hw for every subject, i hope everyone survives the next 21 days because then it means holidays ----> MORE PARTYING

Friday, June 10, 2011

#140 - sad



i got my report back and i'm currently feeling very down... like i always do every time since year nine :( i think i will surrender and give up ext hopefully sometime really soon because: a) i have no interest b) mark and rank was the shits c) i spend so much time and the end result is shit d) i'm the sort of person who gives up easily e) time consuming and much dislike.
but i know it's completely all my fault. i'm so disappointed in myself, and so disappointed that i disappointed my rents who are so nice and just absolute dears to me, trying to make sure i'll get somewhere in life. sorry mum and dad =[ =[ need to fix myself up...! i'm not really in the mood to be partying so.. sorry in advance bitter, if i'm miserable and moping tomorrow =[

and since i'm feeling down, some good old motivational quotes to the rescue:

every ceiling, when reached, becomes a floor, upon which one walks as a matter of course and prescriptive right - aldous huxley

to be able at any moment, to sacrifice what we are, for what we could become
- charles dubois

keep steadily before you the fact that all true success depends at last upon yourself.
theodore t. hunger

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

#139- Jumbled thoughts

hi guys, its been a while! i'm sorry for neglecting blogger but i have an excuse... well many. there's physics (that was today), chem, more phys, eng adv ict + essay, maths, eco essay and many other task which i should do. anyhow something happened yesterday and by that i mean batter trolling sweet (:

sorry sweet (: i kinda knew all about it and well it was funny to see your reaction so thats why i didnt tell you anything ^^ i wish it was the weekend, saturday night shall be epic =D i wonder what my 'cool balloon' will look like, oh and i can finally meet sweet's lover aka her d90.

something about me: i dont like surprises, i'm incredibly inquisitve and curious (i think they mean the same thing but oh wells) and love knowledge (eheheh especially gossip, needs to dnm). on another note; TOMORROW NEVER COMES ):
anyhow i intended this to be a quick post so i can do maths and english essay away so i shall leave you all with some more quotes from my collection. enjoy~


Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin.

"An amazing thing, the human brain. Capable of understanding incredibly complex
and intricate concepts. Yet at times unable to recognize the obvious and simple."
One Good Thing About Music, When It Hits You, It Doesn't Hurt You!

"If you can't AMAZE people with your INTELLIGENCE, CONFUSE them with your STUPIDITY."
For every action there is a reaction... so make it a positive one! (does anyone remember Newton's 3rd law, hahaha phys T.T made so many silly mistakes already)

Friday, June 3, 2011

#138 - so many things

those terrible misunderstandings and misconceptions people have about you.... aarrggghhhhhhh why am i always that person? :( but it's the least of my worries at the moment.
so. today i bawled for a really dumb thing. it didn't make anything better, my eyes just stung intensely after >< stupid extremely emotionally unstable wreck me. but everyone was so very nice and supportive in their own varying good and crappy ways, and at the moment i was loved by all >:)
i also got told off by dear old ms bhave for eating (apples) irregularly. apparently by eating irregularly often, you get painful stomach ulcers..... here's the fact to remember every time you don't want to eat at regulated hours.
awkward moments:
- the awkward moment when two guys you barely talk to, one of them who you are really terribly awkward around and try to avoid eye contact with, join you and your two friends and there is an excruciatingly long awkward silence
- the awkward moment when your very outspoken unself-aware friend comments on one of the guys' long tie wondering aloud where a normal tie would go down to, and pulls his tie down and prods close to his......... omfg. the awkwardness ><
i hate how we're at the age where it can get so awkward with other people and that this is just the start of all the awkward moments we will get in our lives..

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

#137- Reflections

today marks the beginning of june/winter; i hope that the coming weeks won't be as cold as the past couple of weeks. i hope it rains more on wednesdays, studying during sport allocated periods feels so good. it makes me feel accomplished yet i only did maths but still i didnt procrastinate because everyone was doing work as well. oh and did you know that batter is a massive troll- she ruined my master plan today, i is sad ):

stuff im not looking forward to: upcoming assessments in particular english advanced and physics, oh and maths- i have a bad feeling about this test. i dont think that i can uphold our pledge, sorry maths buddies
i need to have an end of term review, not enough time + exams = no sleepovers + no coffee dates 
hmmm harry potter is coming out next month, i suppose i've grown up reading the books more so than watching the movies so i dont really care, but this is the last time that ill see emma, daniel and rupert acting together. i wish they didnt grow up so fast, it's quite scary.

anyhow i shall leave you all with some wise words from my collection (yes i actually have a collection):
-
~`Starting from today, live only for the ones you love and love you in return. Life's too short to waste tears and time on unworthy people. You must live each day with your brightest smile; doing so, you would experience and feel... true happiness.`~
-
Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.

False tears bring pain to those around you. A false smile brings pain to one self
- i dedicate this final phrase to sweet (: in hope that she will come to realise something


The perfect person exists only in our DREAMS.
In this
LIFE, we have to settle with whoever comes close.
Someone not
PERFECT but REAL.

if you guys want to read more of these sayings/words let me know and ill post them more often =D